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Preface

"Blowin’ in the Wind"; The Beginning; Seeds of Doubt; The Lure of Radio; From Sprouts to Flowers; Rush Week Disillusionment; Leaving the Nest; Life on a Houseboat; Spring Break Madness; Working on the Ramp; Cuba’s Myths and Realities; Flying Lessons and Bombing Cuba; Cast of Characters; My First Protest; Challenging Restaurant Racism; Wild Nightclub Parties; Drug Use and Abuse; Miami’s First Antinuclear Demonstration; Academic Freedom Rebellion.

2. Living Out My Ideals (1962–1964)

Moving to Chicago; Laying Down New Roots; The Corrupt Cook County Welfare System; Social Isolation; A Radical Career Change; YSA Actions; Life on the Home Front; Interracial Love; The Blackstone Commune; My Future Wife; Communal Self-Destruction; CORE and SNCC Membership; The Blackstone Rangers Gang; Pushing the NAACP Left; Fighting School Segregation; Apparent FBI Intervention; A Hollow Civil Rights Rally; The Bloomington Indictment of the YSA; Organizing at Roosevelt University; Whirlwind 1964 Midwest Tour; Joining the Socialist Workers Party.

3. New York City: The Big League (1964–1965)

Into the Fire; The Young Socialist Alliance Commune; Radicalizing Columbia University; Internal Faction Fights; The New York Left; Building Opposition to the Vietnam War; The True Subversives; Myopic FBI Files; Socialist Workers Party v. Attorney General; Unknown US Concentration Camps; Secret Police Abound; Agent Ed Heisler’s YSA Infiltration; Agent Provocateur Ray Wood; Frame-up of the Black Liberation Front; Personal Harassment by Plainclothes Agents; Philadelphia Police Brutality; Assaults by Anti-Castro Cubans; US Government Assassinations at Home and Abroad; Malcolm X and the SWP; The Execution of Malcolm X; The Harlem Funeral; Escape to Washington Heights; Ethical Conflicts with Eastern Airlines.

4. Metamorphosis (1965–1967)

Hello Los Angeles; Flying Adventures; Challenges in Mexico; Ubiquitous Marijuana; LSD and Enlightenment; The 1967 Summer of Love; Police Drug Dealers; Dabbling with Dangerous Drugs; The World of Psychedelics; Magical Carmel, California; Near-Death Experience; Dropping Out of Mainstream Society.

5. The Promised Land (1967–1970)

Return to Carmel; A Close Encounter; An Afternoon Ménage á Trois; Exploring Los Padres National Forest; Founding the Institute; The People’s Republic of Berkeley; October 25 Antiwar Demonstration; Forced to Move; Russian River Enchantment; Cazadero Interlude; Idyllic Camp Meeker; Invitation to Wheeler Ranch Commune; The Demise of Morning Star Commune; Qualms About the Grass Valley Commune; Selling the Berkeley Barb; Occupied Berkeley; Almost Busted; Marriage on the Rocks; People’s Park Shooting; Our Geodesic Dome; Returning to the City; Thwarting the FBI; The Largest West Coast Protest; Forced to Cut My Long Hair; Legal Casualties; Personal Casualties; Leaving Drugs Behind.

6. Consolidation (1970–1980)

Traveling on a New Road; From the Sublime to the Mundane; Airborne Again; Northern Canadian Adventure; Moving into the Claremont Commune; An Erotic Film Studio at Home; Becoming a Homebody; Continued FBI Surveillance; Abandoning Communal Life; Love Lost; Living in Radio Paradise; The Birth of Amateur Satellites.

7. Political Reawakening (1980–1985)

Civil War in El Salvador; Forming the Contra Costa Coalition; Factional Politics; Preparing for Action; Fiasco at Contra Costa College; Shopping Center Outreach; The Hilltop Mall Lawsuit; Statewide Legal Challenges; Holiday Bans and Legal Loopholes; Victory in Court; Joining CISPES; March in Solidarity with El Salvador; Solidarity with Nicaragua; Nationwide Actions Against Reagan; International Solidarity Events; CISPES Action Network; Medical and Refugee Aid Campaigns; Targeting the Concord Naval Weapons Station; Blockading Munitions for El Salvador; A Decade of Blockades; Central Labor Council Resolution; Public Hearing Revelations; Reevaluation of the Coalition; Ideological Conflicts; From the Coalition to Contra Costa CISPES; Political and Personal Decline; The Rationale for FBI Interventions.

8. Turning Inward (1985–1997)

Helping KPFA Radio; Military Mind Control Research; Brain-wave Entrainment Experiment; Romantic Interlude; Falling in Love with Emily; Teenage Tribulations; Mom’s Last Days; Marriage in the Sky; The Beginning of the End; Emily’s Family in Nicaragua; The End Approaches; Friends in El Salvador; Emily’s Final Days; Farewell.

9. Paradigm Shifts (1998–? )

Choice; Personal Paradigm Changes; The Global Play of Life; The Stage; The Actors; The Play; Belief Systems; Tools of Perception; Science in the 17th Century; Modern Science; The Gaia Paradigm Shift; Gaian Awareness; Quantum Weirdness; Quantum Philosophy; Gaia and Quantum Physics; Individual Consciousness; Group Consciousness; Transcendent Consciousness; The Future of Homo Sapiens.

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Annotated Bibliography

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Glossary of Scientific and Philosophical Terms
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Acronyms and Abbreviations

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